Being a middle child really sucks.
I am not generalizing this statement, because middle child syndrome is very real.
It is an unavoidable condition that continues to affect millions of children around the world, that includes me.
Hatred is a word that is unable to express the way I feel towards my parents.
Sure they provide me with shelter and food, but I do not give a damn.
All attention were given to the first and last child.
I feel that everything I do goes unnoticed, sometimes it seems that I was not intended to be part of the family.
I was always aware of the "middle child personality", they say that we are underachievers and inferior compare to our siblings.
I personally do not believe this.
Since I was a kid, I was driven to achieve things just to be noticed.
While being successful at being praised and honored, I still didn't feel loved at all.
I think being the middle one has a lot of positive qualities.
I am a very creative person who is inclined musically and am very independent.
But still, I always feel that there is something lacking, that feeling prevents me from pursuing my dreams and ambitions.
I feel that before I can live my life, I must first move on from the past, which is very hard to do.
I am already 28 years old, still single and living on my own.
I hope that all these will pass, and one day I will look at myself and be proud of who I am and what I have achieved, not for the acceptance of others, but for myself.
I strongly believe that good parenting must be practiced by all aspiring parents.
In this way, unloved children like me would not continue to suffer.
We are not alone, there are a lot of middle children out there.